I really want to cut off mouse, she never actually talks to me unless I bring up us not talking or something similar. I messaged her a week or so ago saying we were growing apart, and if I just disappeared don't worry about it. But she pulled the oh I miss you so much etc. thing again and that just makes me feel bad and I stay. She says she misses me but never messages me first, never asks to hang out, and I'm always seeing her post on tiktok with her other friend. I don't mind that of course just that she says she misses me and wants to see me but instead sees someone else, yanno? Just bothers me. I've felt lonely lately because the only friend I seem to truly have is bun, and they live on the other side of the world. I know I'm not lonely but it really feels like it sometimes. When mouse and I first started talking again we talked daily, almost constantly, sending each other vids and just talking about anything. Now I don't get any updates on anything anymore. They're going back to college soon too and we were supposed to hang out more before then, the last time I saw her being July 4th. Idk, I should just cut ties and not say anything. But I do miss being as close as we were. I don't think it's gonna go back to that again though.