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dentist tmr
Category: Blogging
I actually woke up earlier today like I try to do everyday. Work wasn't interesting except I finished reading that bl. It was only 7 chapters which really sucked, but it was cute nonetheless.
I have to wake up early in the morning for the dentist. My manager lent me enough money to pay for the appointment and last for food until I can get my card back, I hate having to rely on other people but there's nothing that can be done about it. I don't like owing people anything.
I have to sleep within the next hour and I already know I'm not going to be able to go to sleep. I'm also not really looking forward to being bitched at by the dentist about brushing my teeth properly. I try to as much as possile but sometimes it's f***ing hard to take basic care of yourself. I can't help that. I try, it's not like I purposefully go without caring for myself. I wish I could easily like normal people but it takes a lot out of me to even brush my hair somedays.
I'm starting to get more and more nostalgic also and I don't need to. It depresses me that I can't go back in time. I need to get it out of my head. My old friends aren't my friends anymore, they aren't going to be. I'm an adult now, I can't go back to my teenage years, I can't fix things that I messed up back then. Some I can, but most I can't. It honestly boils down to me being scared of growing older and the change that comes with it. Everyone around me gets older as well, and you know what getting older leads to.
I don't want to think about it anymore. I'm just going to f*** around until I have to lay down. Idk what I'm gonna do though.
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