Yesterday I was super ultra productive but today I didn't do anything. Even tho I was productive yesterday, why do I feel so empty today??? Its kinda annoying as f*** 🦆
I also have some projects I wanna work on since this whole next week is gonna be vaca, tho i do need to study for exams. I'm also visiting my bestie tomorrow!!!! We gonna be doing very epic thing like, decorating jars and a cd player with stickers? And maybe have one piece playing in the background?
I've been feeling kinda frustrated in the way that I don't really have any friends I could go hang out with after school outside of home :/ I feel like these past few years during covid I've really missed out on the real highschool experience like man I'd like to go a party at least once or something cuz highschool is basically the only time when I would have the chance to. Also the fact that I've had consistent music instrument lessons for the past 8 years is... kinda a depressing thought. Like whenever someone's asked me to hang out afterschool during middleschool and the beginning of highschool I've never accepted the offer due to always being busy. So I've never even had the chance to get friends outside of school :(
I also have so many things and hobbies I wanna try out, even tho I'm already 18 I think that would still be considered young to try out random sh*t, well I mean no ones ever to old to try out new stuff but why does it feel like times running out >:/ I wanna try to learn skateboarding or dance or parkour but I'm just stuck with music, I love music but I just wanna try something new, u know?
welp thats been it for today :> ✌ out , birde
What I listened to while writing this: A fan art drawing I finished today! : Fanart of: Tiktok: @pokkou Instagram: @ninathakilla
i feel so blaah, like i have a weird feeling. is it annoyance? suspicion? jealousy? no f***ig clue. i just got introduced to my partners friends and i dunno why but i get an off feeling from one. maybe im being stupid and my gut is wrong but maybe im right im probably being stupid, im probably just judging a book by the cover. fml i dont knw what to think
depressed
pleased
nervous
lonely
exhausted
blah