On handling the Silly emotion (this post is undecipherable)
Current mood:  stressed

I'm beginning to think 1) I'm poor at doing this, 2) I am foolish for expressing myself. lol "beginning" IT'S been a while. I need to get hobbies, or employment, anything from this current lyfe of unending thoughts I endure ... .. . . .. Lol, I am not against vulnerability or honesty, however I will probably never partake in these again. LOol ok getting kinda incelly with it... NOT like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But there is a crushing embarrassment of having misunderstood a situation, assuming it to be shared, in reality it is one-sided. I'm fine and all is well, but I do feel this strange pit in my stomach/chest, and I think about it often. My silly emotion (crush) got the best of me guyz and I had too many thoughts, now I must experience the consequences. All is well I am good. We r ballin. I don't see myself having these feelings/thoughts again for a long while though. Not only am I suffering the embarrassment (normal feeling but still) but also I just don't think it is my thing. NOT ON PURPOSE this is nawt an incel rant guys AAAAAAAUUUUU((((( ... It was just sort of an exception and now I am back to the general rule (I just don't think I am interested in such.) I did my thing now I am chilling™

Surely every1 in the world has had this experience and in no way am I, like, super sad or shutting myself down, TRULY i am chilling, but I still feel like some sort of evil freak that was super weird and unusual for being upfront and silly.
This post makes no sense but it is about having a crush that you thought was shared but it is actually not and now you just process that and go on. I'm certain this is Normal. NOTHING IS EVEN WRONG i just think about it.

and ontop of this, 
NEVERMIND i need to go to sleep right NEOW this is unnatural (03:8s)