Journal #163

           I am so done with females man. I just had to bitch out one of my friends for copying me. Ever sense she added me as a friend on FaceBook shes been slowly copying me. First she started copying my fake eyelashes, next she started doing her nails really long, after that she started posting photos of herself in lingerie. Those are not the reasons why I bitched her out though. I bitched her out because shes now copying me and is now a stripper like I was. That bitch wants to be me so god damn bad. The reason I'm so mad about it is because stripping was MY thing. Not her thing. Now shes trying to make my thing her thing and I'm not cool with that. Shes not even doing it right. First of all she picked the ugliest stripper name you can possible choose which is "Cashmeer". She also doen't own a pair of actual stripper heels which is a big no no in the stripper world. She has no idea what shes even doing. She's probably making a fool out of herself at this new club that shes working at. I can't stand that shes doing this sh*t. She's even posting "come see me at the club!" to her FaceBook account just like I was doing when I was dancing. Shes prob going to start filiming herself dancing on a pole next which is also something that I started doing before her. Shes a dumb bitch if she thinks shes going to snatch my crown away. I was told that a lot of the strippers look up to me and wanna be like me. I found that out from an online friend who goes to the clubs. Stupid Lauren can't even dance. I'd smoke her bitch ass if I was working where she is working. Dumb bitch WISHES! I really wanna go back to the club now but I don't think that will fly with my boyfriend. He has insecurity problems so I doubt he would be cool with me going back to doing that. I really want to though because of how fun it was. I might go back to it eventually. I need to get back on my pole and start praticing again. I lost my muscles and my confidence by not praticing for months and months and months. Now that I know lauren is starting to try and be me, I wanna be extra better than her. I wanna be way ahead of her on the pole. She will eventually learn how to dance after awhile so I wanna keep doing really really good. I need to make sure that I get back to it soon or shes going to pass me and then I'm going to be the one that sucks and needs to catch up.