depression

my bf clouse broke up with me a few days ago. i loved him (and still do) so much. life is so unfair sometimes :/ 

i showered for the first time today. which should be an accomplishment, but instead i just wish id stayed in bed. he was everything to me, and nobody understands how much it hurts. i have so many good memories of me and him and im not going to get over this very fast like how everyones expecting me to. i love everything about him. he means everything to me and this hurts so much. he says hell think about our relationship but i dont think he loves me anymore. i lost. its over.

i just wish he liked me