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tainted (poem) Category: Poems
you're good to me like no one else but i'm afraid i can't live with myself if i become what i've run away from.
in my little world there is good and there is bad they struggle to coexist.
all this time i've been good but here you are and you're not bad so what does that leave me?
will i become the fear i've fought so hard to overcome? or will i turn a blind eye and escape your loving arms before that day can come?
this poem is about my fear of becoming the "bad guy" in a relationship. so far in my life, i've been the victim, and i feel like a relationship cannot exist without an abuser and a victim. as much as i want to run away from being abused, if i find a person is genuinely good to me, i panic. if they aren't the abuser, then they must be the victim, and that leaves me the role of abuser, which i never want to become. the truth is, a relationship shouldn't be abuser/victim, it should just be person/person and i cannot seem to get that through my head. if the other person is good, its not because im bad.
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